nampak gemuk ke nampak pregnant??

29th october 2008

"alamak.... apakah nampak lebih gemuk atau lebih preggie??!"

my fav question lately every time i manage to look myself in the mirror. ( " ,)
im in my 29th week of holding my belly up high with the least make up ever..kih kih kih .
for every 'wind' that comes out (both ways, sorry yg..) and the back pain that i feel, im loving it and i come close to tears every time i feel the kicks and head banging down there..

the sickness is no more just in the evening..it comes whenever it pleases..its still very embarrassing to go "uweeeeekkk" outloud in the elevator filled with people, but hell...its all for the good of the baby

im at that stage at just wearing anything that still fits, and so malas to even think of shopping for myself...(beware : if u see me in the streets with terrible buruk colour coordination, do not panic, im fine, just bit lazy but fine..( " ,)

other changes in me :

(i) i have very nipis hair before, but not anymore...its long, full volumed and so every morning i do the 'my-hair-looks-good, jgn-jelesss' pose depan cermin..muahahahaha... (tapi crap aah, i heard this will only last as long as the pregnancy period..aiyooo)

(ii) kadang kadang i get really rajin, to the extend, i wipe habuk in my house and even menyapu (wtf!!) then there are other times nak masuk kan baju dlm tong baju pun so the malas..hahaha

(iii) i tend to doze off in my sofa sejurus selepas dinner..right now sleeping sideways in that sofa is the best pose ever

(iv) oh i so miss tidur meniarap....now its sideways, with a book/hp/aircond controller in my hand

(v) lately i have this craving for nasi putih, ayam percik and ulam ulaman...mmmmm...ulam yg served with nasi kerabu tu...wow! syokk

next thing to do, shopping for the baby...list dah ada, tinggal nak separate mana bole dipinjam dulu (thnx kakLong! mmuahs) mana bole di delay dulu ( he he thnks j for the advice ) and mana harus dibeli right now (main thng is jadi a membership of anakku, dpt discount..hehehe)

oh any tips to sooth the backPain?

environmentally aware Karee??

16th Oct 2008

i dunt need a theme, a celebration to raise my awareness to save energy and the environment, but i was touched by small kids that ellen Dgeneres brings on to her show, as small as 6 year olds, who knows how to recycle, spread the love and care for the environment.

im a malaysian, and like any other typical malaysian, its hard to be seen (ok very rare), in my opinion (oh please dont shoot the messanger..hehe), to be environmentally conscious. i mean just look at the mess we do after a pasar malam nite? i mean yes, most of us will go "oh someone will clean it up" which eventually does, but hw about those idiots that throw rubbish so elegantly outside their car? oh and not forgetting the open fire? oh and the worst, those "dilarang membuang sampah" signage filled with sampah all around it, like malaysian deliberately want to be seen as pengotor. aishh..

well its always easy to point at other people, happily not noticing that for every one finger pointed, there are the rest pointing back at us. and so this question i pose to myself.
am i environmentally aware AND doing something about this?

here's my bit to the environment :

(i) i save energy at the office, half of my room is glass windowed, so i open the blinds and get all the light from outside.

(ii) whenever i 'tapau' food up to my room, i dunt wrap it with a plastic bag (because i already feel bad using polystyrene.

(iii) i give the look to drivers who i catch throwing rubbish out their windows. ( " ,). rafek hates that i do this, fear i might start a fight..haha

(iv) i only flush right after number two (my number one when it has already reached the level of "busuknyeeee" hahaha

(v) everytime i buy just one or two items at 7eleven, i dunt ask them to put in the plastic beg, i just carry them.

(vi) we buy refilled shower cream

(vii) we share our shower?? ha ha ha we tried, but easily distracted la and realized we spend more time compared to bathing alone..kah kah kah...

(viii) i send my dry cleans after wearing it twice

(viiii) i sleep with the least clothing that i can and only have one light on for the whole house

(x) i off the thermos that heats water every morning after making rafek's coffee, and later that day, refill it in the fridge (no reboiling).

and so its relatively little, the things i do.
at least its something, right?
its a start
(ha ha just nak sedapkan hati i la ni..haha)

26th july 2005

14th october 2008

i was cleaning up boxes in my office, and i came across my old black book, my little book where i use to write my thoughts..
one in particular, really made me smile in sadness...
oh hw depressed i was back then (thank god it was back then! hehe)

im not so sure whether this was for a person i was involved with, almost falling out, or the uncertainty of things during those times....
but its just plain beautiful...
enjoy


"sometimes
its about the way i look at things
how i'd imagine it to start
or hoped it never end

sometimes
its about the story behind the event
or the glory that was never meant
to announce and then prevent
all that was never meant

sometimes
its the way the question is being asked
or the person we hope would last


most times
its the way he made you feel
or the nites you spent unreal

maybe i'm a drifter
who wonders it all
who carries it all

maybe, sometimes....."